The person inside ....

I just finished watching 2 more episodes of Scrubs Season 5 [yippee~~] and to me the show is still a classic.I kinda start to notice that i am more like Elliot than J.D,which is queer but i guess they both are actually very similar characters.Wish i am more like Dr.Cox tho,cold inside, never let people around him to bring him down,treats people kinda badly,but people around him still love to have him around coz they know he does things his own way for good reasons.Also that laser sharp mouth that never fails to sting hehe.[by the way Elliot is looking hotter n hotter !!]

Wacky jokes aside,the show always delivers a good message in the end.Not just about life in a hospital,as a doctor,but life in general.In the episode 'My Jiggly Ball' J.D ponders about his life so far as he is nearing his 30th birthday.He realizes there's alot of things in life he still hasnt achieve comparing to his best buddy Turk.There's also about Dr.Cox who always looks happy but the fact is he is just too proud to show his depression to other people.

I just wonder,when i'm 30[which is about 7 years from now],how my life gonna be.Will i have a family by then?Will i be happy with my life at that time?Will i be regretting about things that i didn't do when i was 23?Oh yeah,gonna be 23 in September huhu,23 ... 23 .... the fact that i am getting older by the day still hasnt really struck me yet.But i know i've learned alot from my past experiences so far,but i guess u will never stop learning coz u do keep doing mistakes along the way.We are all just human.But one thing that i can't deny is that,these experiences will ultimately shape the kind of person u gonna be.People don't change overnight,well sometimes they do,but normally it is a slow process.Some people,they can control the things that keeps running in their brain,but subconsciously it's a neverending struggle of interests, and here and then,the person will finally bow down and listen to their subconscious mind.Why am i bringing this up?I don't know, i'm pretty sure i am still the person that everybody knows me,but 7 years from now?I can't tell.

I have one more paper to sit this Saturday.Hopefully all goes well,after that i'm gonna stay here for another week or so,do my work,go back hometown,help my cousin to arrange his marriage haha,probably visit my hometown friends for CNY [getting my first paycheck during the hols wohoo!~] and then welcome back the gang from their industrial.

I've finally found my much needed peace during the past week.It's finally been solved.Though i wish things would have been much different[the journey,the ending], i am not holding any grudges.I accept that some things are just not meant to be,but it always happen for a reason.Life is a learning process isn't it?I just don't understand some things.Simple actions that should had been taken early that could had save so much trouble on both sides.

Communication.Communication.Communication.

When there's a breakdown in communication,bad things are always bound to happen.The things u need to tell but u keep it inside,in time it will consume you,or worse the person u need to convey it to.Just by letting time passes by would not solve anything.

God will not change the fortunes of a person unless the person himself takes some action to change his fortunes.

It's still only the beginning of the year.A lot of things will happen this year just like the last.My wish as i get older?I wish as time goes by things will only get better and better.