Wake me up when holiday ends~

Alright .. first things first.This holiday is really killing me.I dunno what's gonna happen at the end of this holiday but the starting part had really been bad.A certain someone has cut me off her thoughts and well.. i should had expected this thing to happen when holiday starts.I'm preparing for the worst case scenario but i actually have been preparing for this since the start.Cause i know the odds and i decided to go with my gut feeling.I'm naturally an optimistic person, but i do accept reality and the reality is that the probability of this going well is actually quite low.The decision is not in my hands and i would wait for hers.

'And if she doesn't go your way, look up the blue skies and say hey.. it's okay .. its okay' [Crumbs,disagree]

People always ask me, why go for the hard ones.I understand why they keep asking me this,but they don't understand my position.These hard ones are the ones that come into my life.It's not this things that matter, it's just the matter of finding the right one, and i'm not the type to go head-hunting or any of the same sort, i just let fate decides who i meet in life.

'A person's heart is not for anyone to take, it's for the person to give'
[my own]

Waiting sucks.. so i'm not actually waiting.In my head it's already over.This way if the news come like i've expected, i won't be feeling so down.If it's the opposite,wow .. like my roomate said before, i might be doing cartwheels around the house.But like i said, i'm not dreaming about this,in fact i'm trying not to think at all about all this.This post might the last time i express my feelings on this issue..

'Don't frown even when you're sad,u might never know who might be in love with your smile'
[yin gave one]

It's really been a nice experience with this person.She's a special one and i'll always remember the early morning wake up call i get when she's online.I definitely don't want this to end like the last one.At least, we'll stay as friends.I dunno who to blame then, maybe it's me.But i hate to be the one who always have to intiate something first.If the other person cares,they would not keep on waiting for the signal before doing something.Finally, i feel bad for dragging someone into this emotional sickness.I know the feeling, and knowing she's feeling it too is maybe something that i don't want to happen.But my friend told me whatever the circumstances this things can happen,hardly a real relationship that goes well without finding any hardships first.Bleh .. it that me hoping again ... n i'm down to my final quote.

God knows,dreams are hard to follow,but don't let anyone tear them anyway,hold on there will be tomorrow,in time you'll find a way


Happi Holidays~